What a start to the new year..

Let's see...do I know how to start a year or what. All last year one of my biggest goals was to not pull out Jonas g-tube accidentally. It was my biggest fear. I even tape it up when therapy comes, put a drain sponge under it and tape that down(it makes it seem more secure), tape it whenever he is attached to his feeding pump...all so that I won't pull it out. Well, I'm sure you've guessed it. I pulled it out this last week. Stupid, stupid, stupid. It makes me sick thinking about it.
Jonas and I were playing on the floor. I was going to pick him up and then decided not to. I thought to myself."oh I forgot that you were hooked up, good thing I didn't pick you up. I would have pulled your g-tube out for sure." Whit comes in. I suddenly need to cough, one of those coughs were it surprises you and you usually don't have time to hold it in, I try to hold it in. Not going to happen. I don't want to cough into Jonas face or anywhere near him. I jump up to run out of the room...POP!! Collapsing to the floor, covering my face, I yell..."Oh no, I just pulled out his g-tube didn't I!" Good thing Whit was there because I could not bring myself to look at it. (OK, I did peek. Just for a second. Enough time to see his tummy normal again..what a cute tummy)
What a nice thing a mother could do. It was about time to change his tube, since this is the same one the doctors put in..but there is a nicer way of doing it. It didn't bleed and Jonas didn't even cry. Maybe just a little, hey..what the heck was that! We are going to see the g-tube doctor tomorrow, so they can tell me the damage I've done. So far it looks ok, but you never know.

Jonas and I trying to be creative. He loves his animals, so he thought he would go live with them.

On another note: Last week seemed like a really long week. Jonas is still trying to recover from his nasty cold or whatever it is. We thought he was doing so much better and then today he throws a curve ball and is not sat-ing very well, hovering around 88% - 91%. He should be better than that. This morning he woke up and was at 99%, so it's very frustrating how he can change that quickly. Now we are starting to get back into real life. Whit has started a new second job working with our Dr, Dr. Swoboda, on Mondays. Then pretty soon he will start school again and be gone all day everyday (Sundays included). Oh it makes me want to cry because it is so much more fun with him here. I think I have the January Blues..it's such a long month!